The Crazy PisceanMonday, November 02, 2009
Majestic
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Saturday, October 31, 2009
To think you knowTo think you know something that you'd bet on it.. just to be proven wrong and slammed to the floor and then to feel you can't figure things out as to what they really mean as against what they seem to be- for better or worse?
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Thursday, October 29, 2009
DoingWhich of these makes you feel better?
Someone doing something speical for you..
OR
You doing something special for someone ?
C'mon.. time to be honest
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Tuesday, October 20, 2009
What is it?What is love?
The question that mystifies even the brighest minds.
It is a feeling. Correct. Not necessarily between humans. Correct.
But what is it? When do you call something love?
There's a love between a child and his parents, between 2 siblings,between 2 friends whether they are of same sex or different, and there is love for companionship.. There is also a love for animals, objects etc but keeping that aside how often is that love expresed and in what ways? PDA is shunned but love for companionship finds way of expression in various forms, even through Twitter these days!
As Karan Johar portrayed in K3G, how is love expressed by one's parents - in their words, their gestures. They may not say explicitly 'I love you' but nobody can love you in a purer way than them.
Siblings express it with fights! Period.
Friends. They don't use fancy words. They just stick up for you, stay with you, endure you, knock sense into you, fight and forgive you.
Back to the main question- what is love? Just a word.
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AJ ::
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Thursday, October 01, 2009
HibernationBeen away from the world too long..
Too many questions, too many people to answer..
God sent friends to support through tough times..
One mind to strengthen..
One life to make worth living..
One heart to make happy..
yes, the hibernation will end for good. soon..
AJ ::
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Tuesday, August 18, 2009
kiddoWhen I feel like I'm forgetting who I am I open the link to my own blog. The colours of its template, the floral design, the variety of topics, the various moods reflected in the writings.. all reflect me. It makes me smile.
In a view to write about people who matter most to me, at the one place on the internet that matters most, here's an entry that I wrote couple weeks back..
Someone i call 'bachha'
Who means the world to me..
He can chop off my monkey's jacket, smash a ball into my painting, fight over pens, infuriate me with a debate on our opposing views on a mltitude of issues, even interrupt me while I am chatting and make me leave the comp.. but he's the one to switch off my light in the middle of night when he walks by room, to even oblige my peculiar requests while i am sitting in bed be it getting water or passing my cellphone or switching on the air conditioner.
I'd like to cook for him. Make him something he'd like to eat- chocolate cake, cheese mushroom sandwich, baked vegetable or anything I just learnt. Even tried my weird shaped rotis and too crisp paranthas and he eats without protest. Maggi is something thats made after a mutual decision.
We've watched and discussed movies, TV shows, watched out for each other and even shared expressions across the dining table with dad wondering between us- what!!!
He comes to my room and peeks, gives a silly smile or cracks a pj and walks off at the middle of the night. At times just tries to trouble me to tick me off perhaps. Gives weird staring or non interested expressions half the time but still cares about details of my life.
He's the guy who likes accusing me for taking his pens and indulging in his cupboard without permission.. who needs help in choosing clothes and comes to me because everyone is too busy.. who'd bear with me while I'd go on and on about something totally irrelevant.
The kid who seems to have grown up but falls, hurts himself, makes mistakes, doesn't always know the right thing from wrong.. but still makes me feel that he's a great guy.
we'd fight. i'd get pissed and angry and say.. i'm not gonna tie him a rakhi.. and this time it actually happened..
my kiddo.. my lil bro
Just got some lines for you, something to live by, borrowed from a song:
Aankhon Mein Jis Ke Koi To Khwab Hai
Khush hai Wohi Jo Thoda Betaab Hai
Zindagi Mein Koi Arzoo Kijiye
Phir Dekhiye ……
Hoton Pe Jis Ke Koi To Geet Hai
Woh Haare Bhi To Us Ki Hi Jeet Hai
Dil Mein Jo Geet Hai Gun Guna Lijiye
Phir Dekhiye…….
AJ ::
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Wednesday, July 01, 2009
songs that move you..Just another song that I liked..
Its called 'The Call' from Chronicles of Narnia. Enjoy..
It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye
Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye
AJ ::
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Thursday, June 18, 2009
Thoughts"Could fulfillment ever be felt as deeply as loss? Romantically she decided that love must surely reside in the gap between desire and fulfillment, in the lack, not the contentment. Love was the ache, the anticipation, the retreat, everything around it but the emotion itself."
Lines from a book.. But so true
No wonder its absence that makes the heart grow fonder. It was the Roman poet Sextus Propertius who gave us the words, "Always toward absent lovers love's tide stronger flows."
Sometimes we see a person almost every day and don't realize what they mean to us till they go away. The importance of a smile or greeting from them is realised only after they've bid goodbye. The process of saying goodbye is in itself so wrenching that one realizes it much later.
Even love.. the pain is felt more than the happiness. Which is why the pain of going away for a single day is more than the happiness of being together for a year. And ultimately we ask, what IS love? The pain, the happiness, the care, the concern, the anxiety, the excitement or something else?
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Tuesday, April 21, 2009
waitwait.. intezar..
yeah something i'd been intending to write on almost 3 years now except that now i have found a new dimension to it. earlier it was about waiting for car pool or just turning up in time for something and waiting for others, calling up people to know their whereabouts.. wait for movies, for hols.. and now its about admission waitlists! think i have made a record this year! lotsa calls and 4 waitlists and with numbers that don't really gaurantee 100% admission.. its the waiting game for folks!
i said in my imt interview that i am a patient person. in most places i used to be amongst the last to be interviewed. now probably i'll be the last to be offered/denied admission. a cruel joke where they tell u- ur good.. but not good enough. 4 times.
time will tell what's in store for me..
i hate this homophone and both its meanings - wait and weight!
AJ ::
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Thursday, November 20, 2008
The Art of Being WellIf you don’t want to be ill...
...Speak your feelings.
Emotions and feelings that are hidden, repressed, end in illnesses as: gastritis, ulcer, lumbar pains, spinal. With time, the repression of the feelings degenerates to the cancer. Then, we go to a confidante, to share our intimacy, ours "secret", our errors! The dialogue, the speech, the word, is a powerful remedy and an excellent therapy!
...Make Decisions
The undecided person remains in doubt, in anxiety, in anguish. Indecision accumulates problems, worries and aggressions. Human history is made of decisions. To decide is precisely to know to renounce, to know to lose advantages and values to win others. The undecided people are victims of gastric ailments, nervous pains and problems of the skin.
...Find Solutions.
Negative people do not find solutions and they enlarge problems. They prefer lamentation, gossip, pessimism. It is better to light a match that to regret the darkness. A bee is small, but produces one of the sweetest things that exist. We are what we think. The negative thought generates negative energy that is transformed into illness.
...Don’t Live By Appearances
Who hides reality, pretends , poses and always wants to give the impression of being well. He wants to be seen as perfect, easy-going, etc. but is accumulating tons of weight. A bronze statue with feet of clay. There is nothing worse for the health than to live on appearances and facades. These are people with a lot of varnish and little root. Their destiny is the pharmacy, the hospital and pain.
...Accept.
The refusal of acceptance and the absence of self-esteem, make us alienate ourselves. Being at one with ourselves is the core of a healthy life. They who do not accept this, become envious, jealous, imitators, ultra-competitive, destructive. Be accepted, accept that you are accepted, accept the criticisms. It is wisdom, good sense and therapy.
...Trust.
Who does not trust, does not communicate, is not opened, is not related, does not create deep and stable relations, does not know to do true friendships. Without confidence, there is not relationship. Distrust is a lack of faith in you and in faith itself.
...Do Not Live Life Sad.
Good humor. Laughter. Rest. Happiness. These replenish health and bring long life. The happy person has the gift to improve the environment wherever they live. “Good humor saves us from the hands of the doctor". Happiness is health and therapy.
(This wasn't written by me. Just an email)
AJ ::
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Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Install love, it is really quite simpleAn article from TOI:
Try to install love in the folder of your heart...it's really not
that difficult!
Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?
Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?
Tech Support : Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer : Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready, as long as you walk me through the steps. Tell me now, what do I do first?
Tech Support : The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer : Yes, but there are several other programmes running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?
Tech Support : Er... what programmes are running, can you list them for me?
Customer : Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
Tech Support : No problem, you can go right ahead. Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programmes.
Love will eventually override Low Self-esteem with a module of its own called High Self-esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programmes prevent Love from being properly installed.
Tell me, can you turn those off?
Customer : Umm... let me see. Actually, I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how? Please help.
Tech Support : With pleasure. It's really quite simple. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer : Okay, done! Wow, Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support : Yes, but remember that you have only the base programme. It's quite basic. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.
Customer : Oops! I have an error message already. It says, 'Error’ Programme not run on external components.' What should I do now?
Tech Support : Don't worry, relax. It means that the Love programme is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer : So, what should I do?
Tech Support : Pull down Self-acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive Self; Realise Your Worth; and Acknowledge Your Limitations.
Customer : Okay, done. That wasn't too difficult.
Tech Support : Now, copy them to the 'My Heart' directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer : Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support : Sometimes. For others it takes a while, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to pass it and its various modules around to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Customer : Thank you, thank you so much.
AJ ::
11:08 AM ::
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Its really funny the way things happen. Funnier still is the part that doesn't even let you laugh. Well folks, thats the way life works.
The range of emotional highs and lows a person is capable of experiencing - its probably more than the range of cellphones available in the market and maybe even tougher to distinguish one point from another. Everyone wants to be happy - an emotion that spans across one extreme of the range. But even so, nobody really knows what point of happiness it is that he seeks. To top it off, nobody knows the price to be paid for it coz had a person known the heavy price he'd have to pay to be happy in life, he probably would have thought about it all over again. There's always a point where one compares the price with the value but then his logic says, I have paid so much so I might as well pay more and get it over with. Few realise that its not worth it. And what really happens is that as a result even after reaching that point after paying the price the person often fails to see the true value of what he has achieved. Its the price that really bothers him.
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Wednesday, May 28, 2008
the senseWe're supposed to have five different senses.. to see to hear to smell to taste and to touch
first two must be the most commonly used ones. the rest are rarely properly utilized.. the enormous variety of fragrances that exist in daily life- when u wake up and open the window, or come out of a shower, or just step into the kitchen while something is being cooked.. to just sniff what we eat everyday would tell so much beforehand!
can anyone really describe the taste of a mango? or distinguish a kakdi and kheera on the basis of taste? or describe the texture of a grape without looking at it, just using the tongue.
and most importantly.. the sense of touch.. that warm feeling that flows through when someone touches us. the instant indignation when a shoulder rubs against our own or the soft sensation of a rose petal on the skin, the coolness of water drop spreading slowly from a single one on the forehead. ever experience healing through touching.. or as munna bhai would say a jaadu ki jhappi?
close your eyes and feel air on your palm on a cool breezy day. hear the quiet rustle of leaves and the breeze whispering past you. smell the earth as it gets replenished. hear the twitter the chirp the buzz. and see the vibrant colours around that would even exist in a computer software colour gamut.
AJ ::
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Sunday, May 04, 2008
so muchThere's so much to say. Been writing my blog in my mind for past one month. Every single day brings along a story to be written yet this page seems desolate. Wonder when things will change.
AJ ::
11:40 PM ::
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Intriguing it is how friends suddenly stop talking and don't talk for really long and then suddenly talk as if they'd talked just the day before.. i guess thats what friends are for. they talk for hours about anything and everything and even though they're not physically around, even though they might not be able to talk to you for some time.. in the end you know they'll be there..or so I hope.
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AJ ::
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Sunday, March 16, 2008
Mango Season
The flowers finally coming out.. yay! its summers!
AJ ::
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008
vella as usualWell I'm really bored even though there's a lot to do. So just picked up a random tag on a blog i passed. Here goes..
1. Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it .
got one below my left eye brow.. thanks to the edge of my car door
2. What does your phone look like?
a black beauty
3. What is on the walls of your bedroom?
clock, paintings, butterflies, a birthday card
4. What is your current desktop picture?
billi mausi (meoww)
5. Do you believe in gay marriage?
Why not? If 2 people wish to be together who am I to object!
6. What do you want more than anything right now?
Time
7. Are your parents still together?
yes
8. Last person who made you cry?
Shahrukh.. just saw Kal Ho Na Ho
9. What is your favorite perfume/cologne?
not much of a freak.. using elizabeth arden nowadays
10. What are you listening to?
khwaja mere khwaja - rahman is the best
11. Do you get scared of the dark?
no
12. Do you like pain killers?
hate them
13. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Kinda..
14. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
chocolate!
15. Who was the last person who made you mad?
bro
16. Who was the last person who made you smile?
:)
AJ ::
11:01 PM ::
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Monday, March 10, 2008
I write what I see
I write what I saw..
The twittering, the chirping, the cawing- most amazing sounds of the world.
The rustling leaves, the swaying trees
The cooing of a bird makes me wish I knew its name
The mild summer sun at the horizon
Warm and smiling, bidding good bye
The breeze gently lifts the hair from my forehead.. brings the sweet smell of the earth
The greens, browns, yellows and blues
come together for such a spectacle
the waters of the serene lake- with ripples and reflections
the solitary tree that holds its own amidst the vast expanse of water
kids scurrying around
The watchman reprimanding young boys upto mischief
miscreants scattered here and there
The rare hot guy in jogging gear
Council of wise men discussing the budget
the old man at his usual place by the fountain
tiny drops flying to his face
mid age women sharing juicy bits of gossip
the sun rays finally playing peek-a-boo from behind the tall branches
the most beautiful sight I've seen.
Everyone says "have a good day". But to experience what I did would be to truly have a good day!
:)
AJ ::
6:48 PM ::
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What secret lies beneath those red folds?
What do the red wraps hold?
Defining beauty, perfection, love, passion,
they intoxicate with their mystifying red
here it stands tall and green
as it has always been
with a leaf and thorns unshed
the alluring sweet scent..
drawing me to its core
to experience and unearth what lies beyond the shore..
AJ ::
1:50 PM ::
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Friday, February 22, 2008
The TripMy first hostel room
The JUIT campus:
JUIT mall road :
Shimla:
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